[He confirms, using her exact words. It's mocking in the sense that he's imitating her, but it's not in order to make her sound stupid. He's just. Unstable, at the moment, and parroting.
The mania's making his head spin. It's hard to be serious, to be vulnerable, when it feels like his brain is eating itself, when it feels like his skin's on fire.]
All the worst things I've done in Ryslig...I wouldn't have done them, if it weren't to help him. You heard about the broadcast...where I frightened a whole city at once?
I'm pretty sure I could have gotten my own powers, without putting the game on TV.
But Ryou lost his temper, near the end. He killed and ate those guys while the camera was rolling. I knew...making it public would bring him up to level three. I was hoping for Maya and the Ring-Spirit to benefit, too, but...
...but --
[Here, his face twists into a rictus grin.]
-- mostly, I wanted Ryou Bakura not to have to be so scared!
Heh heh....heheheh...
[He hates himself so much.]
What a useless wish, huh...? But, those powers...they were taken away from him, when they shouldn't have been, for no reason...at the time he needed them most.
So, if that kind of thing can happen...in spite of my efforts, then...
...all I did was cause suffering, for no reason.
[He lets out a breathy laugh, fog issuing from his nose and mouth like smoke. Up the wine glass goes again!]
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cw murder, broadcast talk, mania, mood instability, self loathing
Date: 2022-11-13 01:18 am (UTC)[He confirms, using her exact words. It's mocking in the sense that he's imitating her, but it's not in order to make her sound stupid. He's just. Unstable, at the moment, and parroting.
The mania's making his head spin. It's hard to be serious, to be vulnerable, when it feels like his brain is eating itself, when it feels like his skin's on fire.]
All the worst things I've done in Ryslig...I wouldn't have done them, if it weren't to help him. You heard about the broadcast...where I frightened a whole city at once?
I'm pretty sure I could have gotten my own powers, without putting the game on TV.
But Ryou lost his temper, near the end. He killed and ate those guys while the camera was rolling. I knew...making it public would bring him up to level three. I was hoping for Maya and the Ring-Spirit to benefit, too, but...
...but --
[Here, his face twists into a rictus grin.]
-- mostly, I wanted Ryou Bakura not to have to be so scared!
Heh heh....heheheh...
[He hates himself so much.]
What a useless wish, huh...? But, those powers...they were taken away from him, when they shouldn't have been, for no reason...at the time he needed them most.
So, if that kind of thing can happen...in spite of my efforts, then...
...all I did was cause suffering, for no reason.
[He lets out a breathy laugh, fog issuing from his nose and mouth like smoke. Up the wine glass goes again!]