[Ryou hesitates with the next part. He doesn't want to make it personal, because he, personally, isn't nearly as important as anyone else. He doesn't want pity. But...Nanami wanted to know about him. She wanted to see him.]
...It's hard to explain that dying is scary to anyone who hasn't died here. And it's hard to explain how seeing someone you love be in so much pain and experience uncertainty he should never experience can be so painful.
[He glances down, at his open palms. The tips of his fingers curl inward, making his claws look threatening.]
They can't understand either...why I don't want to be a shade.
[He's scared, and it shows in his eyes, in the way his ears are pinned back to his head and how his shoulders are bristling. He's afraid that as soon as the month's over, the Fog will stabilize and he'll go back to being a shade, with all the terrible, dark thoughts that make him so angry.]
So, they're angry about what I did. And they don't want to know why I did it, because they can't see the path that awaits them.
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Date: 2022-05-29 05:22 am (UTC)[Ryou hesitates with the next part. He doesn't want to make it personal, because he, personally, isn't nearly as important as anyone else. He doesn't want pity. But...Nanami wanted to know about him. She wanted to see him.]
...It's hard to explain that dying is scary to anyone who hasn't died here. And it's hard to explain how seeing someone you love be in so much pain and experience uncertainty he should never experience can be so painful.
[He glances down, at his open palms. The tips of his fingers curl inward, making his claws look threatening.]
They can't understand either...why I don't want to be a shade.
[He's scared, and it shows in his eyes, in the way his ears are pinned back to his head and how his shoulders are bristling. He's afraid that as soon as the month's over, the Fog will stabilize and he'll go back to being a shade, with all the terrible, dark thoughts that make him so angry.]
So, they're angry about what I did. And they don't want to know why I did it, because they can't see the path that awaits them.