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[assblasted]

The whole blowin' up buildings and acting like a villain yeah.

What was up with that? Were you brainwashed? Blackmailed? Someone force you into it?

[waitingforplayer2]

[ Hmm. Well. She has to tell the truth, due to being a faerie, so... ]

i woke up in the fog caves. i stayed with Her because it was easiest, and i felt like i owed Her, and

it felt like where i was supposed to be

i left after a few days. the missions were too violent. i never wanted to hurt anyone. i went to E+L instead

i don't think that was the right decision either

i know this makes me a terrible hero. i don't blame you if you don't want to talk with me again or work with me again

but i really didn't want to hurt anybody. and i still want to be your friend if you'll let me

i swear i'm telling the truth because i'm a faerie now

[assblasted]

..............why are you a faerie..........

[NOT...HIS PRIORITY BUT CHIAKI PLEASE. Is she just letting Mana experiment on her at this point??]

why didn't you just ask for help? I thought you were smarter than that. You ain't a idiot like a bunch of other extras.

[waitingforplayer2]

i guess i didn't feel like i could. everybody was always being watched by one god or another.

and i felt like it was what i was supposed to do, so it wouldn't make sense to ask for help.

oh also i turned into a faerie cause i asked mana to let me fly again, because i really missed it.

i want to be smarter though. i don't want to make decisions because i'm scared again. i want to make them because they're what matters to me. i'm sorry that i hurt you, bakugo-kun.

[assblasted]

You can't fuckin hurt me I'm invincible. [That's. . .at least a lighter hearted response, for him, anyway. Whether he truly believes it or not, that's another story.]

All i'm mostly hearing is you didn't trust your friends enough. And you've got a shit ton of them. I don't get it.

Whether *we're* friends or not doesn't matter. Someone like you, with so many connections and people who'd be upset if something stupid happened to you...someone like that shouldn't fall into villainous shit.

It'd be too fucking sad.

[waitingforplayer2]

[ Ouch. That actually really hurts, coming from Bakugo... but it feels like something she probably needed to hear.

Her fingers hover over the keyboard for a long time. The thing about always having to tell the truth, is sometimes you have to puzzle out for a while what the truth is. ]

you're right. i should have.

my friends are what helped me away from that place eventually

[ But it had taken too long, hadn't it? It had been too late. ]

but i don't wanna be a villain

i mean not more than we already have to be, by being monsters

[assblasted]

Being a flesh eating monster doesn't automatically make any of us villains either, but especially a bleeding heart like you.

You said you were scared there. Of what? The fuckin gods?

[waitingforplayer2]

it makes us villains to the humans here, because we have to eat them.

after the concert, i just didn't know what to do. that was my best idea at helping people and it blew up. i didn't feel safe going back to the caves, or leaving E+L.

so i spent the rest of the month just waiting. i tried to help in little ways but i didn't know what else to do but wait.

i was scared of all the options i had, so i just stuck with the one i'd already chosen

[assblasted]

[That...is worded oddly. And Bakugo isn't one to mince words, so.]

You already decided you were a villain for a while now. Is that it?

You never struck me as the type to be so indecisive. You always go quiet and then suddenly start babbling about a lot of unimportant shit. It's annoying but always thought it was good you were at least thinking.

But now you're thinking about shit so much that you go fuck it I'll just be a bad guy? That's stupid. You're not stupid.

I don't think you're a stupid villian. But not a hero either. You're just fuckin lazy.

[waitingforplayer2]

[ The messages wound, again and again.

She knows he's right. More right than she wishes. ]

no, i haven't decided that

but i want to be better

whether you believe me or not, i'm going to try

[assblasted]

Prove me wrong then.

Being a hero aint something you can just decide you can do Sometimes on a whim. Real ones aren't out on the street playing pretend or doin villain shit just to coast by. So don't get mixed up in that shit again.

And...look, not just saying that to be cocky. I don't care if you wanna be friends or not, cuz this ain't about me. I'm not stupid, you're too important to too many people.

I know you're the type that'll put others first rather than yourself. So. Try for them.

[fukkin nymph types!!]